Red Barn Candle Company

April 16, 2013

Just Me

Oh,

hi there.

Remember me?

The writer of this little ole blog?

I am still here,

and life is good, busy, but good.
It's been a while since I visited this little space of mine.
I have had a little post, here and there.
But, really and truly,
can't say that I have been present.

I have been going through some stuff lately.

In fact,

I have come here and started to share several times,

only to quit writing and/or delete the post.

That, really and truly, being the reason I have not written.

I just couldn't find the right words,

therefore, it felt it wasn't meant to be.

Make sense?

However,

that being said,

for those of you who actually come to this little space

{and I appreciate each and every one of you}

I feel somewhat that I owe and explanation.

So,

while I don't feel the need to fully disclose everything,

I do honestly feel like I am at somewhat of a cross roads in my life.
Doing a lot of soul searching.

Making many decisions,

some that scare me,

some that don't.

Wanting to do what is best for my family,

praying about what that is exactly.
What is meant to be, what isn't meant to be.

And, if I am being honest,

struggling with guilt.

Mama guilt.

Possibly the worst kind,

right?

Those of you that are mom's, I know you know.

It is tough.

Balance,

it is a such a hard thing to achieve.

Fear,
I am so nervous about making the wrong decision.
Yet, I tell myself, live and learn.
And, in the end I am NOT the one in control.

Failure,
what if I set out to make changes for the better,
only to find out that I can't succeed.

Logically I know I have to BE the change.
So,
I am praying about taking a leap of faith of sorts.
Please pray for me.
:)

Until then,
I will be back now and then with a post.
A good recipe,
an easy craft project,
thrifty decorating tips,
and, of course, family shenanigan's!

Thanks for reading!
~Love and hugs to all of you~