Trust





Trust.

Wow.

What a word.

Such a small word in fact,

for all that it entails.

Right?

Let's be honest.

How many of us struggle with trust?

As in, handing it over to him, kind of trust.

It is a hard thing to do, to relinquish that control.

I feel like I am really struggling with this lately.

You see, this fall, for the first time ever,

both of our children will be in school.

All.day.long.

For the first time, in ten years, one of them won't be at home with me.

They have been "my job" for the last ten years.

Don't get me wrong,

Red Barn Candle Company keeps me very busy.

But, at the end of the day,

my children are my number one priority and focus.

As they should be.

I knew this day was coming.

I have been preparing myself for it emotionally,

well, for the last year or so really.

Which now brings me to the topic of this long winded post you are reading.

TRUST

The voices, OH the voices.

"Am I doing the right thing"

"Is this what I am supposed to be doing"

"Will I succeed at running my own business"

"Is this what's best for our family"

"Can you give please give me a sign"

"WHAT IF I FAIL"

{over and over again}

Well, guess what.

I am not listening to those voices.

Not today.

Not tomorrow.

All I can do is give it my best.

100%

Nothing less.

Keep the faith.

Because you know what,

God is good.

He has kept our little family of four together for 11 years and counting.

He is love, he is light.

He is there always.

Today I will embrace those very signs I constantly ask for.

Take them for all they are worth,

soak them in,

but my best foot forward,

and thank God for this day.

Let.go.of.the.doubt.

After all, what else do we have?

There are no failures,

just experiences,

and your reactions to them.

Amen.