My Word





I will admit, I am not one to make resolutions for the new year.

Don't get me wrong, I think it is awesome to set new goals and such.

I admire you folks who make this list, stand by it and cross things off, one by one.

However, if I am being honest, I have to tell you this.

Not once in my life have I ever sat down with pen and paper to make a resolution list.

Maybe it's because I feel like I couldn't "complete" things on that list,

so I would be setting myself up for failure.

Or maybe it's because I know most new year resolutions go by the way side,

 once the month of February is over with, and keeping up with life gets the best of us.

Not for all, but for many.

 

All of this being said,

I have decided to focus on one word during 2013.
 

TRUST
 

Through difficult and challenging times, I will remind myself of this word.

I truly hope and pray TRUST will remain a constant for me in 2013.

 

I have struggled with some heavy things during the last four months or so.

I try to keep things light and airy here on the blog.

You know, rainbows and unicorns.

{For the most part}

But in all seriousness, I do also try to be authentic and real.

And we all have bad days and troubled times,

 faced with challenges in one way or another.

Because, like it or not, such is life.

That being said,

there are others who are struggling with SO much more.

More than this heart and soul can comprehend.

So, I count my blessings, and try not to complain.

Because at the end of the day, I am thankful, so very thankful.

For everything God has provided us with.

All that we have ever wanted and needed,

he is there, always.

I will readily admit, I am very good at handing it over.

Praying diligently for God to cover, bless and watch over our lives.

I ask for guidance on a daily basis.

I remind myself that I am not the one in control, he is.

But, in some sorts, I take that control back.

Doubting and questioning myself.

Am I doing the right thing?

Are we making the right choices?

Is this is where we are meant to be?

If I am truly trusting in him, why must I do this to myself.

If I honestly believe that he is the one in control,

why can't I just let it be.

And,

TRUST.

So, this is me and this is what I am "working on."

I am praying for Gods grace to simply trust in him and what is meant to be.

We are all a work in progress in his eyes, aren't we.

 

           “I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.”

Psalm 91:2